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It's a bit ironic to have a blog and at the same time feel that you don't really have anything more to say to the world.
But this feeling gets stronger and I´m tired.
It´s getting harder to get in contact with people.
I have also made an interesting observation about contacts on the internet - they are actually one-sided most of the time.
When I get in touch with someone and they interest me - for whatever reason (fanfictions, hobbies, same interests, similar life circumstances) - it often ends up that the other person only talks about themselves most of the time and rarely shows the same interest in me as I do in them.
For example in chats after a while I´m always in the role of an interviewer while the other person only answers questions but never asks some themselves. xD
Sometimes I feel like a scientist and people are the insects under my microscope :D
They are the objects of my curiosity but not subjects of real connection.
But perhaps we also have a silent agreement here: I satisfy my curiosity and they satisfy their urge for attention and being noticed.
The doctor agreed on my observation that I sometimes get the feeling that I act like a robot.
Maybe I´m like Star Trek´s Data.
It´s again ironic because Data was much more connected to the people around him than I ever was or am.
But this feeling gets stronger and I´m tired.
It´s getting harder to get in contact with people.
I have also made an interesting observation about contacts on the internet - they are actually one-sided most of the time.
When I get in touch with someone and they interest me - for whatever reason (fanfictions, hobbies, same interests, similar life circumstances) - it often ends up that the other person only talks about themselves most of the time and rarely shows the same interest in me as I do in them.
For example in chats after a while I´m always in the role of an interviewer while the other person only answers questions but never asks some themselves. xD
Sometimes I feel like a scientist and people are the insects under my microscope :D
They are the objects of my curiosity but not subjects of real connection.
But perhaps we also have a silent agreement here: I satisfy my curiosity and they satisfy their urge for attention and being noticed.
The doctor agreed on my observation that I sometimes get the feeling that I act like a robot.
Maybe I´m like Star Trek´s Data.
It´s again ironic because Data was much more connected to the people around him than I ever was or am.
